rasa ini

bila malam syahdu, otak beku dan kau tak mampu berfikir lurus.. fikiran mula terganggu dan melayang.. lalu menyentuh dalam hati yang kau abaikan sepanjang hari..

lantas idea keluar.. laju saja pena menulis bait kata.. walau takda makna tapi kau tulis juga. Kenapa?

kerana itu apa yang kau rasa

Dan aku rasa, ini lah apa yang aku rasa sekarang. Alangkah baiknya, jika gitar ada.. boleh juga mencipta bait-bait lagu. lagu2 merapu..

Manusia

You can't through this life without making enemies..

>> betul, aku setuju.

and aku adalah one of orang2 yang akan standing out for my right. That is my job. My right is to work and fulfill my responsibilities. I don't care if people hates me for that. Its not that I don't care but I can't. That's my job so by hook or by crook, I have to do it.

Tak semua orang begitu I guess. Sebab, bila ada perjumpaan orang tak pernah ambik tau apa yg org depan cakap. Bila ditanya siapa ada komplen, sorang pun tak angkat.Tapi bila disuruh tulis komplen nak dekat satu rim kertas komplen. Aku tak paham tu. Kalau kau rasa hak kau tak dijaga, why don't you stand up and say it out loud? Kenapa nak guna jalan belakang? Nak tambah dosa kering sendiri mengumpat orang? Setiap complaint yang diterima bukannya tak dipandang, tetapi most of it tak munasabah. Dan ada yang di luar bidang kuasa.

Orang suruh kami view dari sudut pandangan diorang. Be in their shoes katanya. Dorang student, busy, banyak assignment,kelas packed. To be truth, all of us having the same situation. Komplen2, tapi pernah tak diorang terfikir pasal situasi orang? Semua orang datang universiti untuk study. No exception. And we decide to be orang yang mengantarakan pihak pengurusan dan student. Korang, why don't you guys be in our shoes??

Serius dalam perjumpaan, aku boleh bet, orang yang berkertas2 komplen bila disuruh datang ke depan dan bersuara sendiri, xda sapa yang angkat. Yang bertanya mostly seniors dan komplen dorg ada munasabahnya. Dan untuk 1st year komplen keran membebankan hidup dorg as student, what about us, 3rd year? Jangan komplen ikut hati, ikut la otak dan situasi.

And aku rasa by this post, there are more enemies to come. Serius, there are nothing I can do about it. I do my work. That's it. It is all work nothing personal.

words

"I failed miserably"

"awesome"

one sentence is negative another one is positive.

I like both quote. I don't know why would I like to say "I failed miserably" as much as "awesome". I found that the word of "miserably" is attractive and the word "awesome" is well, awesome. Basically in my daily life, these are the most sentence that spoken out from my mouth. Is there any scientific research to prove that human beings have some connection with word? Any ways can show me why did I attract with the word of "miserably" and "awesome".

Personal opinion: Its one of human nature. We tend to bias on one specific thing. That's why we tend to have our own favorite color, numbers and so forth. And to me, I have my own favorite words! It sounds weird though. Are you guys have your favorite words too?

Note to myself

Either I'm trying to get better or I just getting used with the pain. Anyway listening on this song and suddenly I was touched by the lyrics. Maybe I should just hold on and be more stronger. Or maybe I just need someone else to hold on with me.

Hold On

You fought your way up to the wall
But you havent gone past at all
While gazing with tear filled eyes
You just cant help but ask why
If trying hard is what it takes
Then why does it feel like a mistake?
The world has taken its side
You just wanna run away and hide

Its tough
Theres no one to turn to
I hear screaming inside you
Feels like hells all youve been through
Hells all youve been through

Hold on
Dont stop your breathing
I see your dreams and
I feel them too
Hold on
Dont lose your faith
I know you cant break
Im hoping and praying for you

All your peace seems far away
But you know there comes a day
When everythings so bright
All the darkness you feel subsides
And in the rising of the sun
You can finally say its done
The world will take your side
And your heart will start to shine

I will
Be holding on to you
There is nothing you cant do
I will try to be strong
Will try to be strong so

Hold on
Dont stop your breathing
I see your dreams and
I feel them too
Hold on
Dont lose your faith
I know you cant break
Im hoping and praying for you

Ill never let go of you
Ill never let go of you
Ill never let go of you, of you

Hold on
Dont stop your breathing
I see your dreams and
I feel them too
Hold on
Dont lose your faith
I know you cant break
Im hoping and waiting for you

it seems

I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get through anything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering.

and now I am falling apart. I am trying to hold my grip as tight as I can but I keep falling. The harder I try, the harder I fall. I couldn't find the best way to tell my friend and ask for help without burdening them.

All I know is, my heart breaks. I just couldn't do this anymore.

kehilangan

Hilangnya diri aku dalam dunia blog kerana kesibukan yang melanda, ofcourse plus setiap kali aku nak blog, mesti lupa apa yang aku nak tulis, last-last cancel, x jadik tulis..

So today I think I just ranting about anything..

first of all, last weekend kinda short to me. Friday went ended shortly because most of the hours were filled with dance practice. Modern dance on the evening and contemporary dance on the night. My back hurt as its been long time I haven't dance. On Saturday, woke up early because there were notice no water the whole day which happened to be false after all. Practice for modern dance again on the morning, then hang out at my friend's room watching Grey's Anatomy.On the afternoon went to FSTS Organic Lab to help my friend doing her FYP. Not helping anything, just watching around anyway XD. Then on night again, the practice.

On Sunday, there were event in Sakura which involved me for the whole day. At morning I was awake by a friend's call asking me music for aerobic. I was PMS by that time so its been a moody and ultimate lazy day. After that, there were suppose to be gotong-royong but instead me and my members were practicing dancing for a last time. Then since there were bicycles at that time all 4 of us when cycling whole UNIMAS. It was fun and refreshing. Then I was helping in charge on ensuring everything were fine..

On the afternoon sukaneka was held. It was scorching hot so I just stay under the canopy and play with the PA System. On the closing ceremony, we did the performance. Hahahah.. Actually it pretty impressive that we can pull it out even with only few hours practice. And then when its over,we, again, went cycling the whole UNIMAS. My butt hurts, hahahahah...Then I'm having fun went out dinner with friends. We all laughing all the way for stupid and random things.

Then, again practice.

And here comes another weekdays....

p/s: I should entitled this post as The Practice, XD

to anyone

HELPP!!

I am so new in this.

huhuhuhu...

How to find sponsorship??

I need sponsorship for the next project.

I am seriously don't know much the procedure or exactly how to begin..

So anyone, help?