And when you cry, cry for a good reason.

This semester is officially ended. I have no mood to write long post so I guess the summary of this semester will be in other post. Well, it doesn't end with a smile, but it ended anyway.

I want to enjoy the last bit of my third year first, so, Ciao!

::random #1::

I have two more papers left. You know the fear is getting stronger. Fear of failure. Fear of letting people down. Fear of the fear itself. Just thinking about going to exam hall scares me a LOT. Lots of thought, negative ones, wander in my mind..

I know I shouldn't think like that, but last semester seriously wound my confidence. It does make me think twice before I'm saying capable or great at doing something. I hadn't get a guts to take any big risks. I'll tried to lay low but being JPK makes it harder to do so.

dah2. study gik.

p/s: actually I already forgot what I want to blog :D

studying, am I?

actually during this time, I was browsing to my old pics and I realized I hardly taking pictures of myself. At the end, I cam-whoring at that corner of the living room. (totally forgot the intention of studying =.=) then I edit.. then I upload it at FB and here..XD

well, hmm....My eyes getting smaller, my cheek getting puffier... study week effect, though during that week, less study and more eating.. =.="

fine, fine.. nak study la ni...

eh, did I ever told you guys, I got a crush on Remy Ishak? I didn't tell kan? Now I told you.. Lame dah, enta why I'm being so secretive about that..XD

ok2. da. nak study. tata.

Adele - Turning Tables (With Lyrics)

I listened to all her songs again and again. There is something in her voice keeps me listening on her. Suara yang meruntun jiwa.. I watched her performance of Someone Like You at BRIT award and damn I cried. Its true, what the mc says, she able to describe exactly my feeling by her words and her voice.

Most people agreed with me I know, but there also people who dislike her.. hmmmm..

Dear friend,

I don't know why I've had to write it here instead of telling you, but I guess you already know this deep inside..

Everyone will face a heartbroken moment and trust me, I do know how it felt but I know I won't felt the same as you feel now because everyone is different. Just so you know, it hurts to see you get hurt and nothing I can do about it. However fear not, as we all are going to be by your side as you walk through this painful moment. We'll give a hand for you to hold on, we'll give you hug to warm you up, we'll lend our ears and hearts to listen on you, our shoulders for you to cry on and we'll always be there so you won't feel all alone. We'll crack a jokes so you'll laugh, we'll sing our hearts together so you can scream out loud.

We'll help you to move on, so you can wear the face, the one where you smile. You always lighten up my heart when I'm about to cry and that's why I'll do the same for you. ^____^

I don't know how to say this right to you but again I think you already know..

Yours truly,

me ^___^

I can't remember when~

the last time I laugh so hard.. ='D

my typical laugh is hmm how I should describe it.? a gesture of giggles and finished it with smile.. seriously, i mean if I laugh 'hard' all this time, just tergoleng2 with no big 'HAHAHA'..

but tonight..I laughed. HARD. the one with big and non-stop HAHAHA. sampai sakit perut.. And it makes me felt wonderful. :)

Reason? nothing much. A cheesy part of my friend's past that makes all of us cringe. HAAHAHAH!

I guess I deserved it. I've been through a lot. A laugh would somehow ease the burden..

Thus, I should be thankful to you my friend. You make me laugh.. XD

p/s: Vanne, kw terharu x baca post tok.? mi goreng! HAAHAHHAHAHA!

poker face~~

Do you know, human being in general are undeniably awesome. There are lots of abilities we do have that we never noticed before. And recently I've found one amusing ability that I never thought I own..(bangga diri la tok)

I am amused by myself actually on how well I am in suppressing all the emotions beyond the smile that I wear everyday. Especially yesterday. Those emotions were wearing me down, but somehow manage to keep the smile =) as for advantages, its better for everyone else. Negativity isn't good. It drags me and everyone around me down. And I don't like that. Look at the bright side, smiling (even its just a pretend) could make this world a little bit better place to live.

On the downside, if it used too often, it somehow killing ourselves inside with no one knows about it. And, yes, it sucks. Imagine how sucks it to be in the crowd with everyone else but you're alone, and it is lonely. =(

Anyway, it is best recommended not to get used with it. There always reason for things to happen, and lets be optimistic =)

p/s: this post macam note-to-self plak.. XD