in the midst of confusion

hurmm.. hi.. hello. and assalamualaikum

wow.. quite a lot things happened and one of it I'm losing the blogging mojo again. hahaha. dunno.
Things are kinda messy in my mind so I ignored a lot of thing..

And even now, still not feel like writing much..

Sorry ini luahan hati..

Aku tawar hati. Tawar hati nak belajar lagi. Tawar hati nak balik uni.. I ignored everything about my uni.. Every posts every question, I didn't ask much, I didn't answer much either. Apa yang aku rasa hanyalah tawar hati. I just don't want it anymore.

Sigh.
I don't know why I'm feeling like this.
All I know, I supposed not to.

2 more weeks to gather up strength before the semester starts.

Days Difference - Speakers

what makes my day?

A sweet music video with a guy that have an adorable smile in it.

*tersenyum sendiri*

Decision of a life time

you know there are times when you have to decide on your own about your life. It matters so much for your own life, future, happiness..

It takes for me three years to notice it. Two and a half actually. And it takes me one whole year to think about it. What is it?

I'm already in the third year and you know what I realized? I study just for the sake of exam. Then I failed. Seriously. Where's the fun? I've changed. sigh. Years before I am totally not like this. Before I always thinking learning is fun. YES. Studying can be fun ONLY when we really enjoyed it. The thrill, the amusement of knowing something new. New things always fascinate me but since I'm in university I studied. But just enough to get me pass. Which is often I failed. I can't get through it. I don't understand a thing! Then I remembered back in the days how much I love physics. I remembered how I never study last minute before. How I can watch whole series of One Litre of Tears the night before exam yet I still score an A. It was because I learned the whole time. And that's when I realized I was focusing way too much on getting that piece of paper of degree and forgetting how much fun I was when I really put my efforts on studying sincerely. The intention of studying was got off track and that's why I never felt happy those years.

Sounds a bit nerd, eh?

And yet I still fail a lot of subjects. Too many subjects to be repeated. Sigh. That's when I start to think to extend my years here. I know my parents definitely opposing this idea but I have been thinking about this for one whole year. So its totally tough decision I made here. I can make through for four year but that will consist of full credit hour taken for every semester left and all I care then is just to get pass. While I have my time left now I just want to have fun studying. I created the mess at the first place so I guess it is my responsibility to fix it back. And I don't want to finish this degree with unhappy face.

Its absolutely a decision of a life time. So hard to make one. I guess this is one of the things that grown-ups need to do.. huhuhu

what's going on~

22 Nov - Highway Engineering & Structural Analysis

24 Nov - Reinforced Concrete Design & Fluid Mechanics

25 Nov - Hydrology Engineering

-the End-

yes I have another five papers left. My housemate already finished her final and already holiday-ing.. ergh... this is so not fair! huhuhuhu...

Hence, less updates for me..

to Mermer, I would like to do the bag challenge that you tagged me but later, kay? heheh.. I have no camera, my phone's camera sucks..

Played basketball just now and the feeling was awesome! hehehe though I know my stamina isn't stronger as it used to be...

have faith in me

Have faith in me
Cause there are things that I've seen I don't believe
So cling to what you know and never let go
You should know things aren't always what they seem

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I'm going crazy
Cause there are things in the streets I don't believe
So we'll pretend it's alright (pretend it's alright)
and stay in for the night
Oh what a world
I'll keep you safe here with me (with me)

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

They've got me on the outside, looking in
But I can't see at all
With the weight of the world on my shoulders,
They just wanna see me fall

They've got me on the outside, looking in
But I can't see at all
With the weight of the world on my shoulders,
They just wanna see me fall

Have faith in me

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did (Go, Did)
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it (Fall, Meant It)
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

p/s: to Vanne, Juju, Wann, Zaza.. good luck in exam.. hehehe XD

fact: 1 thing you should know about me

I'm not a perfect girl, I'm just a girl who knows how to rock her world

yeah.. I'm rock like that :) hahahahahaha

you and me and life

source: tumblr~

to friend, just to let you know..

I always be there for you.

And I'll listen.

Because you always be there for me too..

and you take time to listen to me

so,

No worries, kay?

random: I don't think you read my blog but yeah I support you! oh yeah chaiyok2!!