Monday, September 30, 2013

Sad is my thing.

note: I wrote this draft this early morning because I can't sleep

First of all, I write this post because I can’t sleep. My biological clock decide to rebel on me, I guess. Anyway, I’m not doing anything much these days. So the only thing that kept me busy is books. Last week I finished reading two novels, both of them are teen-fiction (which is my favorite genre) and I decide to spill my insight of these two books.

Both were equally good, equally sad.

I started to read If I Stay because rumor has it that the book is going to be adapted into movie. It’s a pretty straight-forward book. When I first started I was shocked how fast things happened in the book, but after further reading, I understand why. There are lots of sad moments. I fell in love with the bond that all the characters had, I wish I have things like that in my real life. This book certainly makes me think for a while of how many things in life that I took for granted, and how selfish I can be. Aaaanyway, I can’t help to wait for the movie if it’s coming out, so I can cry and be reminded again of those life lessons. :D

Eleanor & Park was randomly chosen. I was bored so one day, I just browse any interesting e-book to be downloaded, found this and download it right away. In a nutshell, it’s about being young and first love which I totally can relate since I am young. Not high school young but still can relate with it. It reminds me of Toradora (Toradora is an anime series. If you ever watched it and you read this book, you’ll probably understand what I’m feeling). It has different plotline and setting of course.

There are two things that I love about this book. Firstly, the story is set on 1986. Mixtape, postcards, The Smiths, Marvel Comics. What’s not to love? Another thing would be the portrayal of the character. It is so humanely accurate (I’m not even sure if this phrase makes sense). It felt so real and convincing. Eleanor’s life is definitely miserable that there are few times I had to stop reading because the helpless feeling is unbearable.

So that’s that.  I think maybe I should start reading The Fault in Our Stars too.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

keep calm and keep writing

I want to write a lot of things, but I have no idea what to write, so I copied these questions and answer it

1. What was the highlight of your week?
//final exam. I am totally mentally exhausted.

2. Whose car were you in last?
//my sister's. Which most of the time, I'm the one who drive. 

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
//no idea. I never planned anything like this. hahahaha

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
//green-ish grey. 

5. How long is your hair?

6. Are you good looking?
//yes. I think. 

7. Last movie you watched?
//Children who chase lost voices from deep below. It has Japan title but I don't know how to spell it. It's an Japan Anime film. It's an emotional movie.

8. Who were you with?
//while watching the movie? alone. 

9. Last thing you ate?
//double cheese burger.

10. Last thing you drank?
//mineral water. because it's freaking hot today

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
//couple years ago. I think.

12. Who came over last?
//hmmmm..... somehow I don't understand this question. 0.0. Someone, please enlighten me.

13. Are you happy right now?
//i think so. I try live happily every now and then.

14. What did you say last?
//"mmm." *nodding head* I was agreeing to something.

15. Where is your phone?
//in my bag.

16. What color are your eyes?
//pitch black. 

17. Are you left-handed?
//nope. I am right-handed, but I can use my left hand pretty well too.

18. Spell your name without vowels:

19. Do you have any pets?
//nope. I don't feel like to have one, anyway.

20. Favorite Vacation?
//hmmm.. any vacation I have with my friends.

21. What do you dislike currently?
//annoying people. 

22. What are you listening to?
//commercial breaks from tv. I just listen to it rather than watching it.

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
//a boyfriend. eh, it's not a thing. well, my own car, my own place.

24. What is your favorite scent?
//ocean. or after rain

25. Who makes you happiest?
//my friends. rayyan. 

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
//watching anime I think

27. When is your birthday?
//November 9th.

28. Who has the same phone as you?
//I've no idea. I guess people more into Iphone or Samsung, so I haven't found someone use the same phone as me. yet.

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
//wow. It's been a while. Let's see, it was around the time that everyone busy with fyp reports. So May 2012?

30. Do you read your horoscope?
//seldom. If I came across to it, I will read it.

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
//Green Shop. I bought Pringles and a can of Nescafe Mocha.

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
//It's fine. I keep it growing for now.

33. Do you bite your nails?
//Usually not.

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
// No. I'm a student. and I'm broke

35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
//same as above.

36. Myspace or facebook?
//Facebook. Is Myspace still exist?

37. How fast have you driven a car?
//100 something km/hr. But I usually drive slow.

38. Have you ever smoked?
//Yes. I was. Being experimental, they said. pfft.

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
//art. hahaha. I always anticipating art class.

40. Do you have Verizon?
//I don't think so. What is Verizon anyway?

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
//someone who work hard for his dream. who can knows me well. Truthfully I don't have any ideals. Heart wants what the heart wants. So, it's hard to say specifically.

42. Do you have any hidden talents?
//hmmm. no. Or maybe I haven't figured it out yet.

43. Favorite Song?
//Madness. by Muse. or Still into You. by Paramore.

44. Do you like to sing at all?
//yes, despite having no talent at all.

45. Dream Job?
//Saving the world. hahahaha.

46. Where does most of your family live?

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
//I do have siblings.

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
//where's my phone?

50. Do you drink?
//yes. it's a human need after all.

51. Know any other languages?
//I do. I know a little bit of French, Japanese and also German. I'm not sure if I can converse it well though.

52. Ever write a coded message?
//sarcastic yes, but coded no. I'm not that creative to put up something like that.

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
//do you mean married? no. I don't. but if you mean have I go to other people's weddings, yes.

54. Do you have any children?
//nope...I'm still too young to be a mother.

55. Did you take a nap today?
//No. It's a long day to me.

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
//a senior and a junior(which is the same age as me) in my secondary school. my own friend, Biya.

57. Ever met anyone famous before?
//yes I have.

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
//No. I don't. I don't think I like to be in the limelight.

59. Any Pet Peeves?
//hmmm.. a lot though.

60. Are you multitasking right now?
//nope.. not on this moment.

61. Do you like Britany Spears?
//Britany? do u mean britney? I do like her. I was a fan of her, but not so much now. 

62. What is your least favorite chore?
//laundry. hahahahah

63. Last place you drove your car?

64. Ever been out of the country?
//no. sadly.

65. Where were you born?
//miri, sarawak

66. Could you handle being in the military?
//I don't think so. I'm not fit for hardcore tough activities like that.

67. What is your average cell phone bill?
//I don't know. Sometimes, I can last rm30 for few months, and sometimes I can finished Rm30 in a week

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
//No one in particular.

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
//yesterday. During hangout with my friends.

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
//now I think I only have around 6-7 pair of shoes. I wasn't much of a collector.

71. Are your toes always painted?

72. How many piercings do you have?
//now.. 3. 

73. What are you doing today?
//like my previous post, waiting.

74. Have you ever been gambling?

75. When is the last time you updated your page?
//Blogger page? I'm updating it currently. Facebook, twitter and instagram are updated regularly. 

76. Do you like rollercoasters?
//i want to ride it!!! I never get the chance though.

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
//not yet.

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
//A lot. Mirajane Strauss from Fairy Tail because she is freaking badass.

79. Last thing you cooked?
//grill fish?

80. How's the weather?
//terrible. It's hazy these few days, so it is hot all day long.

81. Do you e-mail?
//when needed..

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
//drop it. the screen cracked. stupid.

83. Last time you were sick?
//currently. hahaha

84. What states have you lived in?

85. Do you wish you could move?
//i moved all the time.. hahahha

86. Do you take all the quizzes?

87. What is your dream car?
//hmm.. honda city. or Kia I don't know the name, but I saw it once at my faculty. My lecturer's new car.

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
//i did. But then I think it was stupid. So I moved on.

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
//anywhere but here. It's too tense here.

90. Are you happy with your life?
//YES.pretty much.


which means waiting in Japanese, if I'm not mistaken.
which what I did the whole day today (technically yesterday but now is just 12.20am so who cares.)
and I'm pretty impressed with myself.

Patience is never been my virtue. That, I am very well aware of. That's why I'm impressed. Since I woke up this morning, my mom asked me to 'tapau' chicken rice from SCR because my grandparents coming, and we have nothing much in the kitchen to cook. So I went to SCR and go 'tapau' something. So I have to wait.

Then, as usual, I have to pick my sister from work, and again I waited for her. Since my mom craving for egg  tart, we went to bakery to buy some egg tarts also other breads because this week somehow a lot of guest coming to our house. Then there is massive jam (comparing to other city in the world, this 'massive' jam is nothing) around Bulatan UITM, so I waited patiently for the traffic jams.

Then this night, my sister and her family came here from KL to visit my mom and I was asked to picked them up. I was told that they arrived at 9pm but probably due to severe haze at Peninsular, they were delayed for 25 minutes. And also, my nephew's stuff was a lot, so we have to wait for the luggage as well.
And so, there I was, eating alone at McDonald and waited.

So that's that. I waited. Patiently. Part of me was proud, part of me starting to get annoyed.

I guess, when we grow up, we become kind. Probably because we tend to understand others feeling. Anyway, I just hope that this positive day continues on. Who likes to be negative all day?

Thursday, June 20, 2013

4 more hours. or so...

I was actually in the middle of studying and now I'm spacing out. Then I realized, my head is already crammed in with words but I still don't know if I can answer this coming exam. Yes, you've read it right. COMING exam. Literally around 4 hours to go. my last paper for this semester. My brain decided to stop cramming last-minute revision so at the end here I am after wandering for a while. Anyway, this is going to be end of my 5th year of my 4-year course, and no, it's not the end, yet. Sigh. I still have one more semester to fight.

Honestly, this is pretty a spontaneous post. I suddenly thought that it's been a while that I'm in here. The last post was on 14th February. The valentine's Day. And my post was a quote about the depressing feeling. On a Valentine's Day. wow. I felt pathetic all of sudden. =.="

There's a lot of things going on in my life, definitely. I guess this is pretty much the transition phase, so a lot of things going on. My friends moved on to the real world and for me to observe them is somewhat feeling surreal and I can't help but feel overwhelmed. Because of that, the dynamics of our friendship going through change and evolved. It's harder to hangout casually now, as we live different places and have different priorities in life. Despite that we still look out for each other (thanks to the technologies, it's easier). We have deeper conversations, as we reflect a lot from our own view. I think it's a good change, and I'm adapting it.

Anyway, these thoughts remind me of how far have I gone in my life, how much that I've changed, and make me miss all the good times. Now that I've put words out here, I can continue revising. So, til the other time.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Thousand years of sleep.

“I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that.” 
― Stephen ChboskyThe Perks of Being a Wallflower

I know how that felt. It just, I never could express it in words before. and this definitely elaborate the feeling precisely.

 really, I don't know what to post. Well, I guess my writing mood have its season. I've been busying myself with animes and Pottermore. oh yeah, I got into Ravenclaw. :D

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

The Truth about me. I guess.

I have nothing to do. My friend posted this in facebook, so I've decided to give it a go. I've done this before but let's update some of the information, shall we? :)


1. last beverage = tea

2. last phone call = Mom.
3. last text message = Vann.
4. last song you listened to = Diamonds- Rihanna
5. last time you cried = yesterday. after tengok MyHime. destiny surely being cruel.


6. dated someone twice = yup.

7. been cheated on = yup
8. kissed someone & regretted it = nope
9. lost someone special = I guess so.
10. been depressed = yeap.. 2010 never been kind to me. Sigh.
11. been drunk and threw up = mmmuahhahahahha.. I guess so. crazy times indeed.


12. Blue

13. Red
14. Black


15. Made a new friend = lots!

16. Fallen out of love = nope I think.
17. Laughed until you cried = Countless! :D
18. Met someone who changed you = hmmmm... I'm not sure if what changes me is just this person
19. Found out who your true friends were = I think I know who they are long ago.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = people talks, so I don't bother to find out about it.
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = yeah~ 


22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = 90% 

24. Do you have any pets = Nope. My family wasn't pet-friendly. except my little sister. 
25. Do you want to change your name = Nope. My name is fine.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = eating out with my family. having fun with my friends. Funny though I can't remember about that...
27. What time did you wake up today = 11 something. =.="
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = reading. I can't sleep, so might as well read something..
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = graduate. gosh I can't wait! :D
30. Last time you saw your Mother = last night. 
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = hmmm.. my weight. life is fine now. Not perfect, but it's fine. 
32. What are you listening to right now = sounds of kipas....
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = maybe. Had I? Not that I can recall.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = results. :(
35. Most visited webpage = Yahoo. (Suprisingly)
37. Nickname = Athy, Atey, Taytay, Taaaaayyyyy~~~
38. Relationship Status = Single. Unless being a devoted girlfriend of Bigbang TOP count as a relationship :)
39. Zodiac sign = Scorpio
40. Male or Female = Female
41. Elementary = SK Agama Miri/SK Agama Sibu
42. High School = SMK Agama Sibu
44. Hair color = Black-ish.
46. Height = =.=" why oh why? 155? plus minus.
47. Do you have a crush on someone = obviously. It's fun to have a crush on someone. :D
48. What do you like about yourself? = being me. hahahhaha.. ntahla. 
50. Tattoos = none. 
51. Righty or lefty= both. but right is the dominant.


52. First surgery = Around 4 y.o. I have Harry Potter scars :D(I don't think I should be proud of that)

53. First piercing = my ears. 6 y.o. Then it irritates me, so I don't wear any earrings, until 18 y.o
54. First best friend = Hartini. we were friends since tadika. sampe I pindah Sibu
55. First sport you joined = Bola Jaring. But I was more into athletic though..
56. First vacation = Pulau Pinang. I was still in my mom's womb. HahahahhaXD
58. First pair of trainers = hmmmm... dunno.


59. Eating = tadi. sandwiches..

60. Drinking/Swallowing = nope.. 
61. I'm about to = garu my forehead, thinking of the answer..
62. Listening to = still the sounds of Kipas
63. Waiting for = for now, I don't wait for anything. 


64. Want kids? = ABSOLUTELY! who doesn't 

65. Get Married? = (using Snape's cynical tone) Obviously..
66. Career? = Engineer? That part of me haven't decided yet..


67. Lips or eyes = eyes

68. Hugs or kisses= both? ;)
69. Shorter or taller = TALLER.. I'm a not-so-tall person, so I prefer guys taller than me :)
70. Older or Younger = Older. 
71. Romantic or spontaneous = both? Isn't being spontaneous is romantic?
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = hmmm.. don't really think about that. I don't mind either way..
73. Sensitive or loud= sensitive I think.
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = mischievous ;p


76. Kissed a stranger = nope. 

77. Drank hard liquor = Don't think so..
78. Lost glasses/contacts = always. =.="
79. Sex on first date = no. Thanks God no.
80. Broke someone's heart = MAYBE. well.. it's inevitable.
81. Had your own heart broken = not something that I like to be reminded about.
82. Been arrested = is been caught by warden count? hahahha if it counts then my answer would be a lot!
83. Turned someone down = sigh. plenty of time.
84. Cried when someone died= yes. I think. but not at that moment. most of the time it was during the flashbacks.
85. Fallen for a friend = my class filled with boys, so it's inevitable (I love using this word!)


86. Yourself = when I needed to. You never know what a person can be when motivated..

87. Miracles = I guess so.
88. Love at first sight = nope. I think that would be just a crush. To fall in love for someone you just see, is kinda ridiculous to me..
89. Heaven = YES! 
90. Santa Claus = nope.
91. Kiss on the first date = nope. as well.
92. Angels = all da time!


A very short post, I assumed.

Last weekend was superb. I got to watch Mama, which is I think a fine horror movie. It's good in a way that everyone scream their hearts out. ( 2 days after that I still sleep with my light on =.=") Not that it matters anyway since most of the time I slept around 4-5 am. My sleeping habit is kinda getting worse. I'm not sure what makes me so awake on the night. My morning starts around noon. Apparently my biological timezone not in sync with the surrounding again. And it is pain in the ass to fix that.

I bought Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them.  :) It is some kind of spin-off from Harry Potter. Being a die-hard fan, I feel like being a kid given a lollipop. I should put this moment as the time that I've been truly happy.Besides I've found 3, eh, 4 novels that I'm dying to buy... So hopefully that RM250 rebate is coming soon, because I can't wait to bought them. :D

That this week it's back to being in slumber again. Nothing much is going around I guess, but the results coming out, that's what people said. I really hate that nerve-wrecking feeling that I had since yesterday. My friends told me that I'll be fine, but why do I have a hard time to believe that. I shall go distract my mind for a while until I get to see the outcomes.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Happy, Money, and Cats

I think because it's holiday, I got to post a lot of my thoughts whenever I want. The thing is this holiday felt so.. abrupt. Well, I do know that my holiday started this week, but usually I planned things to do during holiday. This time, I don't. One day, the exam was over, then I don't know what to do. I get lost I guess. My friends are busy with their researches so I don't feel like to bug them too much. So I guess I have a lot of time to let my thoughts wander. When it happens I have to write it down because I don't like feeling overthinking of something and let it scattered my brain. Plus, nothing interesting on tv lately (or I don't watch tv a lot).

Today is already 16th of January, so I don't felt like sharing my feeling on the end of last year and what happens on the New Year. As usual though I get to go to KL again last Christmas. It was awesome except the fact that I lost my ID card, and I spent one whole day buat IC baru because I need to use it to get back home =.=". What make this 2013 different, is probably my resolution. Last year, my resolutions was pretty general. To love more, to live more and be happy. And I was. I accomplished that. Not really shown in my face but I think I'm contented with my life right now. Sure, there are bad days, and hardships but what life without challenges, right? In one way, that resolution what kept my feet on the grounds and Alhamdulillah I stayed sane.

This year though, I'm keeping the same resolution with some extra. I'v read it somewhere before on how to keep a resolution is to be more specific. So I've thought hard to specified what I want for this year.

This is my 2013 Resolutions:

  1. Graduate. I was bitter throughout October 2012 because I didn't graduate on time. It was my fault, so it felt hard because I can't blamed anybody but me. So I'll ensure that I graduate this year. Whatever it takes. I'll go to re-test if I have to. I've wanted to graduate this year so much that I can bear to think the alternative.
  2. Embrace myself. I'm always self-conscious. About my weight, my face, my skin color. It sometimes affect me a lot. I'm 22 now, going to 23 this year, I need to start to take care of my life. I don't think being thin and pretty is important, but I'd like if I can keep being healthy. Changing habits are hard, so baby steps one at a time. Get exercise regularly, do give attention of what I eat and so forth. I might not lose any weight, but if I can kept myself from any sickness this year, that will be awesome.
  3. Save money. I 'm very impulsive on this matter. Sometimes I can hold my urge on shopping, sometimes I don't. I just bought it without any second thoughts. It's dangerous for me at this point. I don't have scholarship anymore. I don't take PTPTN loan. My savings, I think, is enough to pay for the next semester's fee, but as any normal young adults, I like to go out a lot. And my mom starts talking about get a job. =.=" and I owed my mom a lot. So I really need to sort out priorities when it comes on spending the money.
  4. Filled the Jar of Happiness. Yes, I have a jar of happiness. It's not really a jar though. I've read it my friend's facebook about the idea of putting your happy events in a jar and by the end of the year, you got to read it. It's pretty awesome idea. So, besides blog, I have one more place to put my happy thoughts. And I think it cools that if I had a bad day, I can take a look at it to remind myself that I am happy and those bad days are not a big deals, because I know I can be happy. Cool, kan?
  5. Watch a movie alone. By that, I mean, go to MBO or any other cinema, pick a movie and watched it by myself. I never have guts to do that. I guess I am pretty insecure to have fun on my own. I want to be more confident about myself, so that's one fun way to do so. :D
  6. Go for a trip with friends. We've been talking about this for a while. We all have experiences going for trips with family but not on our own. I think it would be awesome, because we got to plan it our own, with our own budget. I hope it happening soon though.
I think that's all. It's more like what I want to do in this year. I love resolutions because it gave me sense of purposes :D So I really hope that I can fulfill all of it.

random story: A stray cat somehow got inside my home. When I've heard the noises I thought it was robbers. My heart literally skips a beat. T_T I don't really scared of cats, but I think started to develop the phobia on them. 

What I've missed

I got bored. so I wrote this.

Things that I think I missed the most:
  1. Tonnes of sleepover. either it was in my dorm or my friend's, we always have sleepover during Friday and weekend nights and make our own party. :) Watch movies is a must. then play games. 'Hack' each others fb. Have a deep talk. Shallow talk too. Go for late brunches and watch movies again. Happy times, indeed.
  2. No curfew. Living in college gives me a freedom of making own decision. I don't have curfew. So we can go out for a drive at 1 am and no one cares. We're not going to wild parties or do extremely dangerous things. Sometimes we just drive along that empty road and have fun watching the nights.
  3. Study group. Since we basically live in the same college, we can plan study group anytime and anywhere we want. 
  4. Basketball and Dancing. These two activities are what my friends and I do a lot, so not having them here, kinda sucks.
  5. Go for college events. I don't live in college now, so I don't have reasons to attend it. Plus, it always held on nights and I have curfews so yes, it sucks. No formal dinners. :(
  6. Packing and Going Home. well, I never liked packing. I still don't like it. yet I miss packing, and be whiny about it. Scavenging boxes in Desa Ilmu, carrying the boxes from my room to the store was hell, but again when with friends anything can be fun. And I always go back a few days after the last paper because we always planned some kind of end-of-semester celebration. We've made it special by dressing up and really let go of the stresses. Up all night, then go back to our hometown on the next day. My hometown now is Kuching, so it wasn't really as excited as riding bus for 7 freaking hours to Sibu with all those luggage. hahaha. :D
I miss my friends. A lot. We're contacting each other now and then, but I do miss them. I miss the time that we had in university. This semester is harder because, this is the first time that I went into classes alone. They all graduated, so I was here alone. I took it pretty hard, I guess. This final exam week was even harder. I used to have advantages studying with them but now I do feel like I am on my own. Each of us have our own role in handling stresses together and I always feel that I was strong getting through that four years because I always knew they are there. Truth to be told, I was scared for this semester. I was scared that I can't hold on. They knew that, and still be there for me. Not literally but I know they are and I always thankful for that.

Well, I guess life goes on and don't wait for anyone. Things change and I have to adapt with it. Still, I miss my friends. 

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Charlie and Wendy. and Emma Roberts.

I love reading. so much. I read pretty much anything. From books, to blogposts, even notices on the notice board. I just like reading. It gave me some kind of peace which I have no idea how to describe. Hence I have a lot magazines, and novels, and newspapers. Not to mention hours spending in front of my laptop reading funny stories I get from internet. Reading gives me different perspective in viewing things in my life.

Enough of gloating, 20 minutes ago, I've done reading The Perks of Being A Wallflower. What took me 20 minutes to write this down? My broadband is slow tonight because it almost reaching its usage limits now, and I just my finished my dinner. Well, to be honest it was okay. Or maybe because I was really hungry while reading and my mom called me twice while I'm reading it, I get distracted. So, I don't really tapping myself into the story. Or. this novel is from a teenager's perspective on what he's going through at the time. And I'm not a teenager anymore. As much as I hated to admit it, it is true. I'm not saying that I'm grown up already, but I think I've been through what this Charlie had been, and now my perspective might has changed a little bit. 

Thankfully, I haven't watch the movie, so it gives my brain a freedom of imagination. Unfortunately, I happen to know the actors that cast for the characters and for some reason I kept portraying how the actors trying to act the characters. Well, maybe I should go re-read it again, then watch the movie and re-read it again. See if my perspective of this novel would change. Overall, I still think the way it's written is brilliant. It's from the Charlie (main character) POV and he describes his complicated thoughts brilliantly. The complicated feeling that I get from this novel is pretty similar with the movie that I watched a while ago It' Kind of a Funny Story starred by Emma Roberts. Not so much of a review, eh?

Anyway, talking about novels, I want to share an awesome trilogies that my friends and I were so excited about. It's Trylle novel series by Amanda Hocking. It started with Switched, then Torn, then the final is ascend. I bought Switched and thought it was awesome because most Fantasy novels these days are more into witches, werewolves and vampires (duh..) but this one is about troll. Then Wan give me Torn as my birthday gift and it is getting even better. Finally she bought Ascend which is the final installment of the series. I haven't read it since I don't want to distract my focus for my final exam. Now that holiday started, maybe I should borrow it after I finished re-reading The Perks of Being A Wallflower. 

random: my life is fine. It's not fair sometimes but it's fine. I figured that everyone has problems so I just sort of wing it.